I just finished uploading November’s song for my Monthly Ziibra subscribers; an older take of a song I sing called “The Promise of Spring” with some nice distorted guitar and lots of reverb (sexy echos for those of you not up on recording speak 😉  )\
I have to say, I love playing around with these old mixes and sharing them. There is a lot of raw emotion and energy captured in a song during the demo-ing stage. The Promise of Spring, for example, was written shortly after my one of my Birthdays when I was feeling particularly frustrated.
I’ve always been something of a “good girl”. I was the kind of kid that thrived on positive attention, craved it as a form of validation. Â A part of me wanted, hell, still wants to climb the ladder, make a regular pay check , have a maxed out retirement fund, and get my gold star having my life together even though I know that gold stars do not happen in adult hood.
The Promise of Spring is about making a mess of things and seeing the potential in it. It’s about relationships that go atomic, careers that stall out, money that always seems to be out of reach, dreams that rip us to pieces. It’s a song about holding on to the belief that good things are yet to come even when it seems like you’ve been stuck for so long you can’t remember what joy even feels like. The promise is that winter does not last forever. Spring will EVENTUALLY show up and bring new life and wild flowers and bird song along with it.
I hope that whatever season you may be in personally, whether you are in a time of rebirth and creativity or you are in a time of chaos and letting things go, that you will take a moment to truly be preset, and be proud of yourself for having the courage to Live with a capital L. Â Sometimes life sucks, but bull shit makes excellent fertilizer.
If your interested in what this ziibra thing I’m talking about is, it’s a subscription service that allows you to play a more integral roll in funding my creative process while receiving regular content and “behind the scenes” access to me. Â You can check it out at ziibra.com/abi-grace